I was having a discussion yesterday with a fellow blogger (who will remain nameless only because he'll see it as a vicious slur). he mentioned off hand that blogging makes him paranoid and, well, it got me thinking...
Blogging is a paranoid activity. It starts about you and becomes about everyone else. The sight of a commentless post is like a joke that no one laughs at. You start wondering why certain blogs don't link you even when you've linked them. is it conspiracy? hatred? envy? disgust? You start to feel that somehow these people you've never met oew you something. It's dreadful, childish, petulant. It's Peter Fucking Downstone getting a bigger Starsky and Hutch car than me. It's JC saying my white and striped Mod Boater made me look like an ice cream salesman ( i thought I looked like Paul Weller or Jimmy from Quadrophenia)
You start wondering how many retard limbless spinabifida'd children you might have inadvertently abused, or about how long it's gonna take Warner Bros to start wanting you to link to their bands tracks, or about why no one's replied to the comments you'd left at their site or why everyone's blog looks so much more designed than yours. You start worrying that you'll run out of things to say (this day is one of those) or music to post. What if all the music out there has already been used? What if you post something that's already been posted? The shame, oh the shame...
I think maybe I was a push of love child, an orphan, a last resort.
It's regressive. You wonder and worry about why the big boys never want to play with you. How come Fluxblog or Music for Robots or whoever don't link to me? Why don't I get an interview on Propaganda.com? Don't I have anything to say?
I even looked at Blogshares the other day. Think about that for awhile.
And then I got a grip.
Shortly afterwards I found a great page of MP3 mixes which my lowly modem couldn't hope to be bothered downloading but all you big Broadbanders out there might want to take a look at, especially if you're into Donna Summer, Psychic Tv, Ikue Mori, Marc Almond, Mouse on Mars, Kreidler, Seti, Biosphere, Nurse With Wound, Hecker, Dizzee Rascal, Coil, Throbbing Gristle, Illusions of Safety, Pulseprogramming, Big Black, Skullflower, Fun da mental, COH, Lou Reed, Mum, Cyclobe, Kid 606, Laibach, Fon, Dj Rupture yul brynner yul brynner yul brynner..
And if you want to know the significance of the Paris Catacombs picture then go Here which I stole from Infinite Thought